Steffy You are smart girl, I say that because #1 you were smart enough to realize that guy was abusive, some people are in denial and think they deserve the way they are being treated. #2 you put your daughter where she would be safe and taken care of. and now you are on your way to healing you are trying to find a place to live. Keep going in the right direction and you will be alright. I promise you. LJTaylor

Steffy You are smart girl, I say that because #1 you were smart enough to realize that guy was abusive, some people are in denial and think they deserve the way they are being treated. #2 you put your daughter where she would be safe and taken care of. and now you are on your way to healing you are trying to find a place to live. Keep going in the right direction and you will be alright. I promise you. LJTaylor

I am a 39 year-old man that has spent my last 4 years in prison.  I had a great life before I got mixed up with the wrong crowd and started doing the wrong thing.  I was married to a great woman (my high school sweetheart) and we had a son together.  I hurt my back had 5 back surgeries became disabled and classified "handicapped" by the state of NJ.  I got addicted to Oxycontin, Morphine and anything else that would kill the pain of the steel rod and screws going through my spine.  I went from work full-time as a Laborer for the county and playing softball on the weekends to a junkie not able to put my own shoes on or even get out of bed.  My son was too little to understand why daddy couldn't play with him or pick him up.  Well I lost my house, cars, wife and son, I started robbing houses to get money for drugs once the prescriptions ran out I went to street drugs.  I was caught and sentenced to 4 years in a state prison ( I had no prior arrest's, but the judge told me to make sure I learned my lesson and did not come in front of her again she was sending me away for 4 years). The whole time my wife still tried to help me get my act together, but I didn't want to clean up.

I went away and she stayed by me the whole time sending me money, bringing my son to see me, always making sure I had birthday cards in the mail and holiday cards.  I got out about 3 weeks ago. my wife has since moved on, she lives in a nice house, has a new car and my son wants for nothing.  She works hard full-time to give my son everything that I shoud have given him.  He is 10 now and he loves me very much but I feel like I hurt him it doesn't feel the same.  I have been living in a motel since I came home and my wife has been payuing  for the weekly rate of $285.00 this will be the 4th week.  I can't seem to find anyone to rent me a room or apartment as soon as they find out I am on parole the red flag goes up.  I keep telling my wife that I would rather just pay her and move in with her, but she said no I am afraid once you move in you will get comfortable and never leave.  I guess she doesn't want to spend the rest of her life with me.  The day we seperated back in 2001, she filed legal seperation and we haven't been together under the same roof since.  I love her and I don;t want her to file for Divorce, but I know she is going to.  She said she will always have a place in her heart for me because of our son, but that is not good enough for me.  She doesn't date, because she just doesn;t trust anyone with our son, she's afraid she will get another loser like myself.  Can anyone help me find a place to rent, my disability payments are starting again next Friday and I will have money again.  If anyone knows where I can rent a room or reasonable apartment (600.00 a month) in Middlesex county, NJ, please let me know

In the meantime, I will pray that my wife will let me in her heart again. and give me another chance.

Bill

I am a 35 year old single mom, I have a 10 year old son.  My ex-husband has gone to prison for 5 years for robbing houses and drug charges.  He only robbed the houses so we could eat!!! yeah right he robbed the houses so he could get high.  I did not get any scrap of food or clothes from him.  Everyone comes to this page and writes how bad it is for them and how they have been waiting for years for disability or they had it and it was terminated.  Bullshit!! My ex had 5 back surgeries and yes we waited for the money, but not 4 years and once you have it unless your working off the books or not really hurt they don't take it away from you.  I really can't believe people come to this site and just expect us working class people to hand over money to them, because their having hard times.  You guys must have some kind of money your on the internet everydat checking your mail and chatting, I know that's not for free....  GUESS What!! when I had no electric or food NO one handed me money, I went to Welfare and everywhere else but I guess I did not fit the normal description of people that go there because I was turned down.  So guess what I did, I pumped gas, I delivered newspapers and yes I worked in MCDonalds.  It sucked but little by little I made it without help from anyone.  Don't get me wrong it sucks to be down and out, but you have to pick yourself up and go on,  for yourself and your kids.  It sucks when you have to live in your car with a small child, that is if you have a car some of us have to live in the park.  Instead of waiting around for money that is NOT coming get your butt out there and do something to make it better.  Hell I don;t promote prostitution but I tell you what if it came down to my son crying he was hungry or me being sweat on by some big hairy man, I would do what I had to do.  Fortunatley I never had to resort to such action. 

LJTaylor

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